I actually have a lot to say, especially being the one who has watched you the most on Jailbreak these past two and a half weeks.
It's common knowledge I was the one who administered the teamban. I've already explained my reasoning, so I will instead focus on my observations of your performance these past two and a half weeks.
I've noticed a lot of stuff that, to completely 100% honest, makes me unsure and not confident in giving you another chance so soon, and although a full admin will ultimately decide the verdict, I know that this response will no doubt influence their choice considering they've likely hardly seen you, at least compared to me. These are the observations I've noticed that have fueled my worry:
- In almost every instance I see you on, you are constantly going on, both in mic and in chat, about how "BLU team needs a hero", "unban me now for no failrounds", and "unban me for peak warden" whenever a failround occurs...including in the title of this very appeal. This makes me believe you are too overconfident in your ability to be on BLU.
- Especially this past week, you've gone on and on and on about this "Family Guy deathrun mod" that has annoyed several players including myself, the only reason I haven't actually comm'd you for that is because you don't persistently talk about it in a way that's considered micspam or chatspam. When asked about it, you even straight up said "this is my revenge for freekilling me 7 times yesterday" on one occasion, telling me you're purposely trying to annoy people with this.
- Your playtimes are concerning; they are extremely excessive. I bring this up as a worry because the longer and longer you play on Jailbreak, the higher chance you have of messing up like you've already done twice, especially since playing for that long is going to cause fatigue and will start to drain your mind.
All of these points bring me to my biggest worry about you: your mental health. Just from the fact that you've straight up trauma dumped on me and several others, both in private chat and in public chat, as well as your habits and especially your excessive playtime, tells me your mental health is very clearly suffering and continuing to deteriorate. You say playing TF2 is a "copium", but If I'm being 100% honest it's actually making your mental health worse, not better, and I haven't been the only one to point this out. My genuine advice is to back away, or at the very least, severely reduce the amount of time you play on TF2 and find other hobbies, preferably ones that are calming to the mind and away from crowds of people (to give you some examples, some of my calming hobbies are playing Creative Mode in Minecraft or drawing paths on roads in Google Earth, though you might find different hobbies), or do something in your local community. I say this because by being in a better state of mind, you will be less likely to screw up and have a much better chance of being considered trustworthy enough for another chance.
That's what I have to say, but a full admin will call the verdict.