Matth
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Here is my official resignation. As I wrote in a status, Everything has a time. And here, my time has come.
What to say? Well, nothing much. Just the essential, as I’ve already wasted too much time of my life here, uselessly, working as Admin constantly and much for a person who didn’t deserve it at all. A person who NEVER said me “Thank you, Matt-ers?, for what you’ve done and continue doing, thanks so much”.
I’ll start mentioning the good sides (I know, I won’t write the essential until the end).
I enjoyed almost everything of this community. It was an awesome and important experience (I’ll never forget it) for me to meet new (and more or less smart and funny, too) people.
Some people, good people, who showed to be mature and humble people and friends; and some people, who instead are the last I’d ever wish to meet in my life and to deal with. Mainly one person is in this second list. I’m a student (next year, University), nor a babysitter neither a teacher for immature kids with vices.
As I became admin, I decided to help others as volunteer, for free. I loved it. I’m glad that most of people here, mainly JB users, will always remember me for the changes that I brought to that server; and also, specifically, that some admins who I “raised up” personally love me for what I did and for the way I managed stuff. But, I’d have been nobody without my JB Staff, and mainly without the Users (who are the blood of every community) who supported me in these 11 months of hard and professional administration.
The first “Thank you” is to the JB Staff all together and to my (ex) JB users. Thank you. See you in game.
Now, the bad side.
I have to admit it, that letter for the strike was born, and Kah may confirm to you, as a Resignation letter together with Madact and Clic. But then, we tried and give another chance to this community, and that’s why it became a Strike.
As now, I think that I (the first organizer of that strike) am the only one who got the deep meaning of it. And I’m sorry, my apologises to all the admins who believed in me with that strike.
But no, I can’t really go on. I was misled too many times in these 11 months, always by the same person. This Strike meant so much for me. But I realized it, at the end.
I can’t deal with something which is just a Game community, I put too much of my affords here (my fault, believing that a game community was something serious to deal and to spend serious time with, in a very professional way), and I’ve always been misled.
And, I don’t want to be misled again by the same person for the nth time. The nth time, which means so much for me. A delusion now would be too big for me, morally. Because, yes, I have a Strict Morality. You may think, “things are going on, changes are going on, with the Head admins” and so on. No, mates, no. Nothing is going on honestly and in real facts, really, even with the two very good new Head Admins. I got it. You are free to think what you want, I won’t force you to believe me. But as some people may tell you, my predictions never go wrong, never. This will have its time, too.
Just, wait and you’ll see.
I don’t want to get deceived anymore (like it will happen to the 2 new Head Admins), and that’s why I prefer to resign now, with Honour, before getting the last and final delusion. I wouldn’t really stand it, and anyway I would resign after that. But it has no sense to wait, as it would surely happen. The strike has become just a joke.
I’m happy that things partially moved and that admins finally opened their eyes, but now your leader/organiser leaves, to save his Honour before somebody else will ruin it for me. I’m sorry, I tell you again. I can’t explain you more. You, go on as you want, if you wish this. Pay attention to the promises, that’s the only suggestion I may give to you. The strike has lost, not officially yet, but has lost. Sorry again.
The reasons why I leave are also related to real life. The incoming school year is the hardest, and the last before University. Only God (?) knows how much I will have to study.
Spending (uselessly) most of my free-time here on Steam and Internet is also something I want to delete from my life. I would never wonder to arrive to “get” a girlfriend from another country, and consider ourselves engaged just because, for example, we make Skype calls.
Plus, I’m tired of administrating and helping as (Senior) Admin, without even a Thanks in 11 months by the person I was hard-working for, for free.
You know what? It has always sounded like working as Admins was our duty or something we should have said Thanks for, not our wish to help as volunteers. Self-esteem of me admin has fucked up since November.
But there’s only one reason why I still continued after 9 months. I needed power.
Pay attention, as I already explained to somebody (and I told to my 2 best Steam friends already in Winter). It’s not that I love power:
I love power when it’s used with good intentions, to help the collectivity. On JB and every server I wanted to play, I needed it to play peacefully, and I could also help others, of course. I consider myself a very good admin,, so I could handle power, and that’s should be a reason why I got the love from the JB users, the ones I thanked above.
Now, I see that nothing else has sense here. I want to be free. My school stuff and my social life who of course is a problem to my administrating, are surely something; but mainly, I got enough of my admin position’s conditions.
I loved to use power to help others, but if these are the conditions, no, I can live without the admin.
Having to deal with a person who says to be 18 years-old, and who gets easily in rage when I just use Rhetoric to talk with him publicly, acting as an immature person (as this will always be, left strikers)… No, please, I have much better to do of my life.
I think I have nothing else to say, but a Good-bye. We’ll meet on the servers and on the forums, and on mumble, too, why not.
I hope that this post won’t be deleted by anybody (as it has happened illegitimately other times to me and not only me). I don’t even think there would be a good motivation to do it, as I didn’t insult or disrespect anybody specifically (“Excusatio non petita, accusatio manifesta”, which is a famous Latin motto). As I’ve never done here, differently by other people. The same ones, mainly the same person, I would never like to meet in real life, even if I get paid.
We may share or not others’ opinions, but about Respecting them, we Must respect them, when they are not unmoral and illegal of course. And that’s what I’ve always done, also in my real life.
Maybe that’s a reason why I’ve become a leader of a serious political movement here in my city.
I wish you all the best.
Thanks again for everything.
A special thanks to @Kah , @Wolf and @Clic Clic Boom , who showed to be really mature and good people to talk and deal with also in real life… and like, WOW, I never imagined I would have done it, also to @Madact . We are just very very similar, that’s why: the opposites don’t use to be attracted. But ye, she’s very smart in her world, and her intelligence, I caught it immediately, talking to her. The strike at least helped us to get closer each other.
I repeat, a big big hug again to @Maddity . You, my friend… We were born together as admins. We die almost together.
You are the best person I’ve met here. You are full in Humility, as I already told you, a thing which is lacking to many and many admins here. And not only admins. I got your humility: Humble people understand each other.
I’m quite wise and perceptive (luckily), and that’s why I’ve understood the most (the true most) of all of the people I've talked with in these 11 months. I, well, I’ve never posted things without a reason, even some posts in the shoutbox or in the status. Everything has had its hidden and mysterious meaning, always.
“One more time”, Richard Marx sang. “One more time”.
“Nothing I must do, nowhere I should be, no one in my life to answer to, but me”.
See you, mates. My summer vacation is close. Goodbye
What to say? Well, nothing much. Just the essential, as I’ve already wasted too much time of my life here, uselessly, working as Admin constantly and much for a person who didn’t deserve it at all. A person who NEVER said me “Thank you, Matt-ers?, for what you’ve done and continue doing, thanks so much”.
I’ll start mentioning the good sides (I know, I won’t write the essential until the end).
I enjoyed almost everything of this community. It was an awesome and important experience (I’ll never forget it) for me to meet new (and more or less smart and funny, too) people.
Some people, good people, who showed to be mature and humble people and friends; and some people, who instead are the last I’d ever wish to meet in my life and to deal with. Mainly one person is in this second list. I’m a student (next year, University), nor a babysitter neither a teacher for immature kids with vices.
As I became admin, I decided to help others as volunteer, for free. I loved it. I’m glad that most of people here, mainly JB users, will always remember me for the changes that I brought to that server; and also, specifically, that some admins who I “raised up” personally love me for what I did and for the way I managed stuff. But, I’d have been nobody without my JB Staff, and mainly without the Users (who are the blood of every community) who supported me in these 11 months of hard and professional administration.
The first “Thank you” is to the JB Staff all together and to my (ex) JB users. Thank you. See you in game.
Now, the bad side.
I have to admit it, that letter for the strike was born, and Kah may confirm to you, as a Resignation letter together with Madact and Clic. But then, we tried and give another chance to this community, and that’s why it became a Strike.
As now, I think that I (the first organizer of that strike) am the only one who got the deep meaning of it. And I’m sorry, my apologises to all the admins who believed in me with that strike.
But no, I can’t really go on. I was misled too many times in these 11 months, always by the same person. This Strike meant so much for me. But I realized it, at the end.
I can’t deal with something which is just a Game community, I put too much of my affords here (my fault, believing that a game community was something serious to deal and to spend serious time with, in a very professional way), and I’ve always been misled.
And, I don’t want to be misled again by the same person for the nth time. The nth time, which means so much for me. A delusion now would be too big for me, morally. Because, yes, I have a Strict Morality. You may think, “things are going on, changes are going on, with the Head admins” and so on. No, mates, no. Nothing is going on honestly and in real facts, really, even with the two very good new Head Admins. I got it. You are free to think what you want, I won’t force you to believe me. But as some people may tell you, my predictions never go wrong, never. This will have its time, too.
Just, wait and you’ll see.
I don’t want to get deceived anymore (like it will happen to the 2 new Head Admins), and that’s why I prefer to resign now, with Honour, before getting the last and final delusion. I wouldn’t really stand it, and anyway I would resign after that. But it has no sense to wait, as it would surely happen. The strike has become just a joke.
I’m happy that things partially moved and that admins finally opened their eyes, but now your leader/organiser leaves, to save his Honour before somebody else will ruin it for me. I’m sorry, I tell you again. I can’t explain you more. You, go on as you want, if you wish this. Pay attention to the promises, that’s the only suggestion I may give to you. The strike has lost, not officially yet, but has lost. Sorry again.
The reasons why I leave are also related to real life. The incoming school year is the hardest, and the last before University. Only God (?) knows how much I will have to study.
Spending (uselessly) most of my free-time here on Steam and Internet is also something I want to delete from my life. I would never wonder to arrive to “get” a girlfriend from another country, and consider ourselves engaged just because, for example, we make Skype calls.
Plus, I’m tired of administrating and helping as (Senior) Admin, without even a Thanks in 11 months by the person I was hard-working for, for free.
You know what? It has always sounded like working as Admins was our duty or something we should have said Thanks for, not our wish to help as volunteers. Self-esteem of me admin has fucked up since November.
But there’s only one reason why I still continued after 9 months. I needed power.
Pay attention, as I already explained to somebody (and I told to my 2 best Steam friends already in Winter). It’s not that I love power:
I love power when it’s used with good intentions, to help the collectivity. On JB and every server I wanted to play, I needed it to play peacefully, and I could also help others, of course. I consider myself a very good admin,, so I could handle power, and that’s should be a reason why I got the love from the JB users, the ones I thanked above.
Now, I see that nothing else has sense here. I want to be free. My school stuff and my social life who of course is a problem to my administrating, are surely something; but mainly, I got enough of my admin position’s conditions.
I loved to use power to help others, but if these are the conditions, no, I can live without the admin.
Having to deal with a person who says to be 18 years-old, and who gets easily in rage when I just use Rhetoric to talk with him publicly, acting as an immature person (as this will always be, left strikers)… No, please, I have much better to do of my life.
I think I have nothing else to say, but a Good-bye. We’ll meet on the servers and on the forums, and on mumble, too, why not.
I hope that this post won’t be deleted by anybody (as it has happened illegitimately other times to me and not only me). I don’t even think there would be a good motivation to do it, as I didn’t insult or disrespect anybody specifically (“Excusatio non petita, accusatio manifesta”, which is a famous Latin motto). As I’ve never done here, differently by other people. The same ones, mainly the same person, I would never like to meet in real life, even if I get paid.
We may share or not others’ opinions, but about Respecting them, we Must respect them, when they are not unmoral and illegal of course. And that’s what I’ve always done, also in my real life.
Maybe that’s a reason why I’ve become a leader of a serious political movement here in my city.
I wish you all the best.
Thanks again for everything.
A special thanks to @Kah , @Wolf and @Clic Clic Boom , who showed to be really mature and good people to talk and deal with also in real life… and like, WOW, I never imagined I would have done it, also to @Madact . We are just very very similar, that’s why: the opposites don’t use to be attracted. But ye, she’s very smart in her world, and her intelligence, I caught it immediately, talking to her. The strike at least helped us to get closer each other.
I repeat, a big big hug again to @Maddity . You, my friend… We were born together as admins. We die almost together.
You are the best person I’ve met here. You are full in Humility, as I already told you, a thing which is lacking to many and many admins here. And not only admins. I got your humility: Humble people understand each other.
I’m quite wise and perceptive (luckily), and that’s why I’ve understood the most (the true most) of all of the people I've talked with in these 11 months. I, well, I’ve never posted things without a reason, even some posts in the shoutbox or in the status. Everything has had its hidden and mysterious meaning, always.
“One more time”, Richard Marx sang. “One more time”.
“Nothing I must do, nowhere I should be, no one in my life to answer to, but me”.
See you, mates. My summer vacation is close. Goodbye
