Look, I'll give an honest viewpoint here. A lot of Admins who don't go on the USA server don't know what's going on here, but BigShow has been known to steal; a lot. I've been there when Roy, my mentor, was in game with me, and yes, she has slain him. Quite frequently, to boot. However, they were all perfectly fair slays. It wasn't like she was only targeting him, nor was she continuously slaying him for no reason. Her actions were justifiable.
It seems as though every time you get punished for your actions, you call unfair claims and such. Whenever you would get slain in game, you would make a huge deal about it when you know for a fact that stealing on Panda servers is against the rules which you agreed to when you first joined the server. Whenever you would get muted or gagged, you would always run to either DeadSworn or myself and asked to be unmuted/ungagged. Or, you would claim that it was "unfair" that you got punished. It's almost as though you believe that you don't deserve punishment for breaking the rules whatsoever.
Now, on to the whole "I get harassed constantly" thing. Yes, I have heard you get harassed before, and have I not stepped in and told them to stop? Yes, I have, and I'm quite certain Sworn, Roy, and and players on the server can back me up when I say this. I know for a fact that Doc says some rude thing, and if I happen to be there, I always tell him to stop. However, I have nerve heard you stand up for yourself and ask them personally to stop. For the most part, you either retort with an insult of your own, or you retort with a name of equal or greater rudeness back at the person who originally spoke.
If people are rude to you, and you're rude back to them, which as I stated earlier, was a normal response from you, I see no reason as to why you're so upset. We do punish those who harass other players, no matter who they are. That's our job as Admins.